I'm sitting on the eve of the launch back into 'real' life and all the complexities involved. These past months have given me so much. Of greatest import, however, has been the time I have been afforded to focus solely on my daughter and on my new role as her mom. It has certainly been the beginning of a new life for both of us and, through it all, we are growing. In some ways the growth has been easy and in others very challenging. On this journey of our lives together, I know that will always be the case. Yet, it has been weeks of a great deal less stress because I had no other concerns to ponder but the needs of my daughter.
Starting tomorrow, the long hours of call (this weekend is mine) and full-time in the office are back in my life. It is time to reclaim my role as the professional person I was before I became a mother. New challenges lie ahead. I know I will meet them but it isn't going to be a seamless transition with night call. I will be the one with the growing pains now. I did very well in keeping up with my professional life before my daughter. I feel like I am getting an improving handle on this mom gig too. Now, I get to mix them both together. Whew...I hope I can make it come together with minimum of stress for both of us.
In a way, we've been living on fantasy time. It is now that I feel like 'real life' is coming into view. After all, what comes next is going to become our routine for a very, very long time. (Unless I write that great American novel or invent a gadget the world can't live without ;0)
At least I know I have a full handle on 'mommy brain'. This morning I drove to the office, talking to C the whole way. It wasn't until I pulled into a parking space at my office that it dawned on me that I had forgotten to take her to day care. Whew, I knew that was one of the reasons I would love having her facility so close to my office. I did feel like a loon though. I also find myself talking to her when I am in the car on the way to the hospital during the day. C isn't with me then but I have become so used to talking to her that I am prattling on whether she is in that seat or not.
As well, I suppose you know you're getting the mom gig down when finding Cheerios in your bra doesn't even raise your eyebrow. One does have to watch that they don't get right in there front and center though...that looks a little shady ;0)
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I've been away for the week and am just getting caught up. Sounds like things are improving bit by bit, and I am glad. For us, the getting onto our real lives was helpful - full-time work and daycare schedule. The days are pretty predictable for us both, and we both seem to thrive more with that in place. I feel very confident you both will too, as soon as all the kinks work out.
I'm glad to hear that I am not the only one who made almost to work, only to discover A still in the back.
too bad "real life" has to start again huh?!
praying for a better transition than expected...and that you don't get a single call this weekend! :) I know-reaching a bit, but it could happen right?
You never cease to leave me with a smile (or two). I wish you much luck, love and peace as you enter into the real world. I already know you will make it!
Cheerios in the bra - what memories! Its been a long time since I've had to worry about that. :)
Have a great day tomorrow. I am anxious to hear how it goes, but I am confident you and Claire will do great. You're an awesome team! :)
I have all the faith in the world in you. You're a superwoman, remember? :)
Good luck with the transition back to real life. I'm sending positive vibes that it's an easy one.
I've done that...forgotten to "drop off"--more than once. Hang in there through the transition. Once things are routine it'll settle a bit.
You crack me up with the cheerio front and center thing.. LOL
I too have driven right past Maddy's daycare before. She will start yelling at me.. "Mommy, Mommy, you forgot my school".. The she will say, "Silly Mommy", as we turn around to go back. Mommy brain is forever yours now. :0)
Here's to a good call weekend. Perhaps the stars will be aligned just right to have an easy transition back into call rather than a sink or swim kind of weekend.
Good luck with this new transition. I know your attitude and sense of humor will help you through.
Hugs!
Yeah, I hate to break it to you, but I think mommy brain is permanent. At least I know it last for 2+ years!
The Cheerios are nothing. Wait until she realizes that the boobs bounce if you push them from side to side. :o)
Good luck transitioning to your full-time schedule. It will be bumpy, but I know you'll work it out.
Don't forget the possibility of winning the lottery. ;)
Wishing you the best of luck with your transition. Thinking of you both. I think you gals will do just great!
Glad to hear that things are looking up. Good luck getting back to "real life". I have faith that you will handle it like a champ!
Real life can kinda suck...& yet it's the best part about living.
Hope it all transitions well.
Oh - and, yet, to win the lottery one must buy a ticket! Guess that rules that one out ;0)
Have a great day. It will go well.
LOL!!! Thanks for the giggle - sure makes me feel a little more sane knowing, I'm not the only one with a soggy brain!!! :)
(PS. You have Cheerios in your bra - I found a whole bunch of pastry in Tari's nappy today - not the pre-digested kind, either!!! Not sure how it got there, as she had a ton of clothes on today!! :)
I love this vision of you talking away to her, even when she's not there- you ARE a MOM indeed, my friend. And so amazingly have fallen into this role (from my standpoint, it seems) almost FLAWLESSLY- you've made it look SO easy- even though I KNOW it has not been 'easy'. You are such an inspiration to me.
I (since I am that praying type, at least when I put my heart to it), will pray that this weekend and the week to come move smoothly for both you and that precious daughter of yours...
ps. (you and me both on that ticket, so i guess i should stop complaining that i haven't won that lottery!)
Here's hoping for a smooth weekend.
Hugs and prayers for you friend as you head into fulltime mommyhood mixed with fulltime work.
Heh...Cheerios in your bra made me giggle. Isn't it amazing what we can find in there and wonder when it got there...and why didn't we know it was there??
yay for you! i have done the same exact thing (forgetting the drop off) and am so glad that day care is 5 minutes from my office for that very reason!!!
Just wait until you're 30/40 minutes into a drive and realize that you've been listening to and singing along with a kiddie song CD, can't tell you how many times I've done that little gig. Good luck with your return to full time work plus the Mommy gig, you'll rock it.
AH, yes, Cheerios in your bra. Been there. :-) Also bugs, sand, baby puke, beads, glitter, you name it, it's been in there. LOL!
I just don't understand!
Why do people adopt that have "careers?" Wouldn't that sweet angel be better off with someone that cared enough to take care of her themselves instead of letting the daycare workers raise hert? Hasn't she had enough of being institutionalized? My heart just breaks for her.
Just asking?
Well I must be supermom...never had a cherrio in the bra. Not once. LOL....
Ahh. real life. Yep agree with T. But all will "meld" together soon enough, just in time for something else to come and throw more change in.
Good luck with all the changes my friend. Smooch that beautiful girl of yours from Ms. H and I!
Yeah, you definitely live in a bubble those first couple of months. But I know you and Claire will make the transition back to the real world just fine!
Hoping your call weekend went smoothly. Love that you're talking to C in the car. On my way home from work I have not transitioned to complete silence. No music/news/chat-just trying to regroup for the next role! Pack a box of rice milk in your purse and when you make those unexpected cheerio finds you're good for a nutritious b'fast! =) Thinking of you both.
Oh, it's so hard to let go of that precious time, but eventually the new routine will be comfortable. I dread being away from my girl again going back to work in the fall, it's been such a gift to be with her this year. I'm still plotting yet more ways we can be together. You've done a great job so far and as you said, there will be some bunps but you all will fine your groove.
Aren't Cheerio's SUPPOSED to be inside of your bra?!? LOL
I am catching up after a tough few weeks culminating with Katie being hospitalized. Glad to see things are humming along and that being a mommy to that beauty is as natural as having cheerios in your bra ;0)
We constantly talk to AA too. I feel a little loony, almost like talking to myself. Especially shopping, I'll tell her what we are doing, whether we are turning left or right, what is next on the list to look for.... and then I encounter other shoppers who give me that sideways glance... oh well!
Alyzabeth's Mommy
Good luck for a smooth(ish) transition.
You've been in my prayers. Love the cheerios!! LOL
Good luck my friend. You have a challenging work schedule but I know you will figure out a way for you and your gal to survive (and thrive). I look forward to seeing more photos of that cute pipalicious face soon.
Tell me if you find that winning lottery ticket my friend, because I sure hope you do. I wish you could spend every second of every day with your little chicken wing. So glad to hear that you guys are doing great and you are one fantastic mama. I chuckled when I read about the Cheerios...
Hugs,
Jonni
Welcome to motherhood! No one warned me about Mommy brain, lol. Now I can't get anyone's name straight so I call them all. We are turning into our mothers, right? ;o)
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