...my shoulders are down where they belong now. It'll all work out - and what doesn't we'll just modify. It was just the shock of seeing that schedule awaiting me on my first day back and The Wing's first day in day care. From the looks of things it will be ME, not The Wing, who has the most adjustments to make in the transition ;0)
While I am on my 'OMG - I am going to go nuts' moment:
- Do you ever absolutely believe you hear your kid screaming and actually get up to find she is sound asleep and not stirring? This happens to me with some frequency. It is bizarre because I would bet my life that I hear her. I am POSITIVE. (Great, mama is already having auditory hallucinations ;0)
- I know this is a phenomenon with newborns but, seriously, my gal is now over a year old. If your kid sleeps later than usual and you hear no stirring on the monitor do you convince yourself that something horrible has befallen them before you open the door to check on them? I have only done this a couple of times but, geesh, did my mind jump the train to Hellville very, very fast when all was TOO quiet. I really am not a nervous type so that reaction surprised me. I hope that part stops soon because it is a hideous feeling - if even for only the few moments until I crack that door and see my girl either snoozing or just smiling back at me.
- Mommy Brain is a REAL situation. I am telling you I would lose my head if it wasn't attached these days. Should make life interesting those first few days back in the saddle ;0)
- Off to veg out. My girl is getting her beauty sleep for her photo with the Easter Bunny tomorrow. I wonder if she'll scream. Honestly, I doubt it. Mean mother that I am I think that photo would be a riot if she did.
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When we first came home, I would wake up in the night to find myself frantically searching under the covers and pillows for Maggie. Who was sleeping in her crib in her bedroom.
That new mommy craziness doesn't end after you've been home for a while either. :)
LOL @ auditory hallucinations! Still happens to me, even with 4, in fact, I got up twice the night before last. Irritating, isn't it? You're deep in Mommyhood now! :)
Good luck with the bunny! Can't wait to see the pic, it'll be precious, crying or not.
You're doing mommy talk! I love it!
Glad that the 'Wing' is doing fine in her daycare situation. What a blessing and relief for you, I am sure.
As for the fear that something will happen to our beloved 'baby' I can tell you from my experience that the fear might not go away. I had the same weird fear when DD slept in till 10 am yesterday. She is 8!!!
What will we do when they are out with friends or worse yet, driving?
Take care and thanks for the great posts!!
Warmly,
Kyra
Throw that dayum monitor out....I swear to pete they make you an anxious basket of nerves. I did the exact same thing with all of mine, I think the monitor was speaking sweet nothings in my sleeping ear & I'd pop out of bed to find nothing but silence. Trash it, if she yells loud enough, she'll wake you up & then you'll know. (Just my 2 cents that you weren't asking for ;0)
Secondly, I love a good bunny scream photo!
OH I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE BUNNY PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!Geeeeeee good luck next week...it sounds a bit sucky!!!Love the PJ photo...tooo precious!
YES!!! And - totally embarrassing confession - we still use a video monitor in the Tongginator's bedroom. (For those who don't know - she's five. FIVE, y'all!)
I still have to use the baby monitor for Bri because she is on the opposite side of the house and I can't hear her if she calls for me without it. Sometimes I still hear "phantom" noises. When Bri first got home, I would go in to check and see if she was breathing when she was really quiet. Nervous mama syndrome! :)
Yes! And I'm so excited it's not just me! One night I got up, went in Little Bit's room and picked her up and brought her to bed with us, because I was convinced I'd heard her crying. (I'm a sleepwalker sometimes.) And she's three, and I still worry when she sleeps late...
I love your posts--hang in there going back to work!
We have a video monitor and I can hear every breath my kid takes. It is a really handy thing to have.
I totally had phantom cries for over a year. It was something that I had to actively put down. It was all about me and my fear. I don't know how else to explain it. It was part sleep deprivation, part life transition, and part "Oh I'm the only soul caring for this soul" thing.
I remember the day I put it down. I also removed the monitor out of my bedroom and trusted that if she cried enough for me to hear, then I should go.
I moved the monitor downstairs so I could watch tv without hitting the mute button every 5 minutes thinking I heard her. Much better plan for me. Can't say for you!
c
Did you know the monitor can pick up others around you who may have babies? Ours does. I never used a monitor with my other kiddos but with Maddy I decided I might need one. I had those same times when I would hear (via the monitor) a child crying out ' Mommy, mommy". I would get up to check on Maddy and she was sound asleep. One night, Marty got up to check on Maddy while I still listening to the monitor. He said she wasn't moving a peep, but the baby in the monitor was still crying for mommy. Turns out, the monitor was picking up our neighbors kids and they live three houses down (and we all live on atleast 1 acre of land so it's not like we are right next to each other) I doubt seriously you having auditory hallucinations... probably just hearing someone else's kid.. ;0)
Maisie's 2 1/2 and I still start to freak if she sleeps late and I don't hear anything...of course this rarely happens as the girl barely sleeps, but it's just a Mama thing.
I love Maisie's first (and only) piccie with Easter bunnies, she was screaming her head off and I laugh everytime I look at it.
I still hear the girls calling for me sometimes - they are 7 & 4. GAH!
And I check them every night to make sure they are breathing. And if they sleep in past 7 I wonder what's going on, because they NEVER sleep past 7 except in the winter when it's darker.
"Mom Brain" never goes away. It gets worse. I just go with it, and know I'm giving them good fodder for their future therapists. Just doing my job. ha.
I still freak out if I don't hear anything coming from Js room. LOL!
LOL...at 10 years old, I'll still check on my child if it's TOOO quiet...but for entirely different reasons! :)
Yeah, and that mommy brain....sigh....
My kids never sleep longer than usual because I go in and wake them up every morning. Yup, mean ol drill sergeant mom!
Do you have a cat? We do and she can hit a pitch at 2:00 AM that sounds just like the distant mournful cry of one of our kids. I've flown out of bed and run down the hall far too many times. Now I sleep with a noisy fan to mask all the noises. If the kids do cry, they have to do it loud enough to drown out my fan. Fortunately for them, this isn't much of a problem.
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Donna
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We still check on Kerri several times a night. I think it is absolutely normal. Welcome to parenthood!
A friend of mine explained Mommy Brain Syndrome (MBS) by saying that you lose brain cells down the birth canal when you deliver a child.
Soooo, how does that explain MBS to those of us moms who never gave birth??
Sarah's 4 1/2 and I still have those moments when I hold the monitor to my ear and listen intently to make sure I can hear her breathing. For me? Still having those moments! lol
Robin
Erin has been home since she was 10 months old. She is now 6 1/2 years old. Yes. I still have those auditory hallucinations. So does her daddy.
Sorry to hear about your schedule for when you return. That's no fun!
It is so much fun reading about your adventures as a mom, I'm the same way about freaking out when it's too quiet or Nora's slept too long. :) The wing is darling. Absolutely precious and I don't know how you keep your hands and kisses off her long enough to take pictures! ;)
I couldn't agree with you more about points #1, #2 and #3. Isn't it funny what happens when you become a mama? You worry all the time about your little pumpkin. I used to hear phantom crying all the time too. Too funny! Love the photo of Chicken Wing with EB...too sweet!
Hugs,
Jonni
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