I simply could not leave that negative post haunting the top of this blog at such a happy time for those seeing their babies now! What a downer that post was. I feel like I need to scrape it off me like gum off a shoe. Besides, there is little I find more pathetic than adults who whine and beg ad nauseam so enough of that. As it was, I trudged into work yesterday, put a surgical cap on my bad hair and managed to get my onslaught of work finished by about 230A. Then I grabbed a shower and got a few glorious hours of sleep so I can go at it again today and tonight. I'm excited that, if my call luck holds out, I may be able to keep some long-standing but oft-cancelled plans I made for tonight. It is AMAZING what even a few hours of sleep can do after long periods of running on fumes. I usually run on only about a quarter tank anyway but when the fumes are all that are left bad things happen to my disposition.
As for me, okay, so it may be January before referral. I can say 'big deal' now and rather well mean it. No more moping and thinking I should just walk away (I never seriously contemplated that but just vented when I was feeling sorry for myself). But, just so you know I'm not some kind of 'droid', if one more person (and nearly all do) tells me how excited I should be now I am going to give them a hearty flick across the nose. That one ranks with 'hang in there' ;0) Seriously, how psychologically dangerous is it to allow one to keep getting excited for nearly three years and then get whacked upside the head every time? I'll get excited when I see my kid. Don't expect all that much else before then. I may be nervous, anxious and all that ever-so-fun stuff but 'happy excited' is on hold yet again. That works for me. I'm a "I'll believe it when I see it" kind of gal in a lot of matters.
I need distraction on this blog. How many times can I post that I'm still waiting? Yep, can't get obsessive. That is most unattractive ;0) So, drop me a one or two word topic that I can put my .02 in on. Rules are no religion and no politics (enough already on that one). Seriously, just give me anything to think about, write about. Some examples: belly-button lint, ginger ale, pooper scoopers. Keep it light, have some fun. Or, if you don't want to keep it light at least keep it smart. C'mon, throw me something to work with!
Congrats to everyone seeing their babes for the first time! Those pictures are a real boost for me and I can only imagine the joy you must feel. I am so happy for all of the brand new and expanding families :0)
PS: I do still have some cute video (not of my feet but of my little house guest) to upload but time and locale say 'no' to that right now.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
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I so hear you on the 'catch' phrases that seem to run the gaunlet when no one knows what to say. That 'hang in there' makes me gag.
Get peeved, get irrate, get however you need to be ~ we all understand. You don't have to have a happy post all of the time.
You want a word to run with, hmmmmmm? Here's mine: Dingledork!
How could I not?
Miss you woman. Let's plan a Starbucks run soon.
I would love to know your opinion on why it is that flys always end up in the window tracks. Viedo maybe??
Me! Write about me and how great I am! Me! Me! Me! Me!!!!
(crickets chirping)
What?
Seriously, though, how about favorite holiday traditions... or how you stay cozy warm in the fall... or top 10 fantasies about parenthood that you expect to be shot down by reality in the first year... or the ugliest piece of furniture in your house and why you keep it around.... or... hey, I'm on a roll.
I'm sorry, but you DO deserve a bit of a pitty party every now and again. I know you don't want to be seen as negative, but I don't think anyone would see you that way. It is hard to keep readjusting our expectations over and over again. Not what you wanted from comments here, but needed to say that you deserve a little whine right now!
I think my comment just got nuked.
Anyway - trying again.
Mea culpa on the "hang in there" comments... I think I've left you about 100 of those. oops. Sorry about that. :-)
You are seriously a superstar - handling this long long wait with grace and honesty. I admire you so much.
And can't wait for the day when I finally get to read about your referral. That will be a good day.
Everyone needs to have at least 24 hours of feeling glum! It's not natural to hold it in!
Glad to see you back up and running! This truly is a marathon and there are so many personal walls that we hit during the wait. Luckily you are in the home stretch.
Wendy @ Adoption & Fire
OK....I will be proud to start this one off.
1) Christmas Trees - Themed trees or Old Fashion trees?
2) Do you wash the bottom of your feet or let the shower wash them?
3) What is the one smell that reminds you the most of your childhood?
4) Have you ever had a great idea that you could sell or market and then later find out someone beat you to it?
5) Gloves or mittens?
Who do you think Jesus would have voted for - Obama or McCain?
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oh wait - I just broke both of the NO religion or politics rule with that one question.
damn.
Glad to see you back out of the dumps :-)
As for a subject to write about, the first thing that popped into my mind were "Swiffer dusters" ;-)
Geeze. If you're going to be positive, I'll have to pull myself together and follow suit! As for topics, how about a treatise on the value of daylight savings time. Or why socks insist on falling down in boots. Guess I'm out of interesting ideas, which may explain my uninspired writing lately...
I hear ya Pipo- Oh how I freak within when someon says "aren't you getting so excited?" or I hate it when they figrue out WHEN they think I will get my referral.
SO this is a question I thought about posting on my blog so here it is for you...
How do you see you future with your daughter? Such as...What do you hope to teach you little one? Do you want to provide music lesson? Dance? Etc? And at what level? Will you do the china school? Language? Dance? What do you hope her personality is like? What do you hope to instill within her sole? How much will be do the China culture in your life?
I would love to hear what you have to say cause I really value your words.
Lisa
Here are some topics you can update us on:
How is Jake the sick cat doing?
Do you keep track of how many babies you have delivered to date?
Whatever happened with the broken mailbox?
How is your diet/exercise program coming along?
What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
Do you remember your first crush, first kiss or first love?
OK, that's about all I can come up with for topic changes. For now, anyway!
I thought rumors had it matched to the 20th? No? I guess I need to check that out. I'm really hoping you are a Dec girl because I really thought I would be Feb girl. Rats.
My question: When will I see you in the pathetic red foot jammies again? ;0) Put those on camera baby.
Glad you're feeling better today. I seem to bounce back much quicker when I stop and think how close I really am. I feel so bad for all those waiting behind me. If it's another 6 months....I will wait. I will wait as long as it takes.
However, I would LOVE to know what the hell the cut off date is. I have a little boy just dying to take some loops off our LID chain.
Some topics for you to focus on.....
1) Fridge magnets
2)Sand castles
3) Pencil Sharpeners
4)Your favourite kind of tree
5) Why insects are important to our ecological systems.;-)
6) Why feet are beautiful examples of the gloriousness of the human form. (He he he....)
7) Burping
8) Farting
9) Snot (these were my son's suggestions)
10) Horses (my daughter's)
11) Bella Sara cards (also my daughter's)
12) Skittles
Ooo I'm the first to comment?! Hmmm... now there's pressure - what topic do I choose? I was going to peruse other peoples ideas first!!!
Ok, you appear to work non-stop - so my topic is "vacation" - when was your last one, or what was the best vacation of your life?
I have some good news - Mr T has 2 suppliers in Guangzhou - and one INSISTS we have to go see her... which we probably will! So my dear sheep-shagging friend.... we may finally get to meet?! And under the best circumstances too!
Sorry I mentioned China... I was sposed to be distracting you!!! :)
Thinking of you and just know that your up next! You can handle one more month after all this long, crazy ride! Hang in there!
Coke or Pepsi?
Chocolate or Vanilla?
Tell us some funny birth stories.
The craziest baby names your patients have chosen.
Maybe a contest with clues to guess baby girl's name? Then we find out the winner at referral time.
Oh crap. I made ya think about the topic of which we won't discuss. Okay forget that one.
What's your favorite color M&M? Do you eat all one color before you start on the others? :)
Ok I thought of some more:
What is the one kitchen gadget you cannot live without?
Favorite toy as a kid and why?
Guilty pleasures?
Naughtiest thing you ever did as a kid?
What is the one song that keeps repeating in your head and you have a hard time forgetting?
Oldest song you can remember the words to?
Or we could always talk about men:
who would be your dream date?
Palm trees....Jimmy Buffet.....Disney...cocktails by the sea...........(oh sorry...in my own world).
How about the stench of a blanket that your kid sucks on - that cannot loose its smell no matter how many times you wash it? 10,000 leaves covering the yard and no idea what to do with them - since condo living was the way of life for 5 years............ Need I go on? I can come up with some stupid stuff.
Your hangin...I know you are. Nuff said.
Post your to-do list that you want to accomplish before traveling to China (then cross off 90% of the items to be realistic).
Maybe tell us about the cute referral cards you are going to send us all once you have your baby's name.
Christmas cards you have selected?
My creative juices have disappeared..... we just love reading your blog and hope to see your baby before January.
Alyson
Alyzabeth's Mommy for Seven Weeks!
LID 01/27/06
Hope this puts a smile on your face:
A cop stops a Harley for traveling faster than the posted speed limit,
so he asks the biker his name.
'Fred,' he replies.
'Fred what?' the officer asks.
'Just Fred,' the man responds.
The officer is in a good mood and thinks he might just give the biker a break and, write him out a warning instead of a ticket.
The officer then presses him for the last name. The man tells him that he used to have a last name but lost it.
The officer thinks that he has a nut case on his hands but plays along with it.
'Tell me, Fred, how did you lose your last name?'
The biker replies, 'It's a long story, so stay with me. I was born Fred Dingaling. I know - a funny last name. The kids used to tease me all the time, so I stayed to myself, studied hard and got good grades. When I got older, I realized that I wanted to be a doctor. I went through college, medical school, internship, residency, and finally got my
degree, so I was Fred Dingaling, MD.
After a while I got bored being a doctor, so I decided to go back to
school. Dentistry was my dream! Got all the way through school, got my degree, so then I was Fred Dingaling, MD, DDS.
Got bored doing dentistry, so I started fooling around with my assistant and she gave me VD, so now I was Fred Dingaling, MD, DDS, with VD.
Well, the ADA found out about the VD, so they took away my DDS. Then I was Fred Dingaling, MD, with VD. Then the AMA found out about the ADA taking away my DDS because of the VD, so they took away my MD leaving me as Fred Dingaling with VD. Then the VD took away my Dingaling, so now I am Just Fred.'
I say whine away. The situation is so out of control right now so whats a girl to do?? I love your blog! The good the bad the happy the sad. That's what it is all about! Sending BIG cyber ((HUGS)) to you!
Hi C!
What's your favorite Christmas song?
Feeling sorry for yourself is allowed...
As for topics - I am really not that creative.
Where does wind come from?? I always wanted to know that.
Found your blog thru blog hopping. I am with Special K, would love to read about funny patient stories. One of my friends is a stay at home mom who is no longer a practicing ob/gyn and tells us all kinds of interesting things.
I had my annual recently and had to go to my gyn who is an oncologist so you can imagine how somber it is in their office. He is the sweetest man and has the best nurse. I am one of his youngest patients so we tend to joke about how things are going for me post all my many surgeries. We were talking about Halloween and what my daughter [who is Chinese] dressed up as [skeleton she is not a girlie girl] and trick or treating. When he said the famous words move your legs, I told him of your patient and what she did. You should have heard Dr.L and his nurse laugh. Your story made their day. And no, I did not have the word boo anywhere on my body.
The cliches are now cliched out! Vent and bitch or do whatever you want. It is yours and you do not have to make excuses...not that you would but you know what I mean.
I used to be all Polly Anna like but now I am more like your 'tude of "I'll believe it when I see it" kind of gal in a lot of matters."
Topics...
Where in the world would you like to vacation / visit?
How do they get the caramel inside the Caramilk bar ? (That is a CDN thing)
Stinky cheese...good or just stinky?
Coffee, tea or who?
Keep smilin!
Well, if I was one of those whose nose you wanted to flick, I'm sorry. I know I wanted to chew off the ear of people who said, "Just relax and you'll get pregnant" or "now that you're adopting, you'll get pregnant" (uh, kind of hard after a hysterectomy, but soooo kind of you to give me unsolicited advice on the shortcomings of my reproductive techniques).
A chocolate flavored port wine with some Sees candies always helped me! :)
There are no rules saying you have to be positive all the time!
Although I am excited that now you don't have so long left to go!
I am thing Dec referral for you.
Thanks again for everything. Hope we did not leave you with too much of a mess. Glad we could be there for you as you have been there for us. I guess I left my pillow can you bing it to Maddy's B-day party. See you tomorrow.
Holiday recipes?
Purpose for car alarms???
Dude. Tell me the secret to your ROCKIN' kick butt awesome attitude!! Everytime, you pick it up and keep on goin'! I LOVE that in you, you totally inspire me!!!! And I'm sorry, but I am going to still believe that Christmas is looking good for you and baby girl. I'm having some one on one time with God on this. And Buddha. And whoever else will listen.
Yeah, keeping up the "excitement" for such a long period of time would probably be darn near deadly!
You're doing great.
The up and down totally sucks, PIPO. And though it does get a bit better once you get your picture, I'm sorry but the memory of that long wait DOES NOT go away. I can only imagine the pain of those waiting longer than 32 months. Thinking of you. Hugs and margaritas.
Zip Ties. All the uses you've ever used them for, and all the things you'd like to do with them. I love zip ties.
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